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i did not have any siblings to raise like children BUT i did have a nephew to raise like my own son (and I still do) and I believe it when they say that destiel is a choice Dean would not willingly make. dean in his wildest dreams would have Cas all to himself forever and ever BUT yeah if he had to kill Cas to save Sam he would even if the choice would kill Dean himself. because I get it I think I get it If I had to kill the girl im in love with to save my nephew I would kill her and I’d hate myself forever for it but saving her life over my nephew I could never do that. I mean obviously that scenario is not going to happen BUT putting it into real life context would dean save Cas over sam and the answer being no he wouldn’t- it makes sense
#spn mini rant#destiel mini rant#this is where disappearing-sam-syndrome in fanfic comes from#bc if you’re staying totally true to character dean is picking sam over Cas every time#because sam is like his son and dean never gets the chance to work out their unhealthy family dynamics#it’s nothign romantic because wincest is not real but Dean sees sam as his son#and if you’re writing destiel fanfic where destiel wins. u kinda have to downplay sam. or fix the brotherly bond. or get rid of him entirely#I love sam but destiel is the one selfish thing Dean has#even as just a friendship dean deserves destiel in the most selfish way possible#so yeah I’m cutting sams screen time. I want destiel to win!!#like yeah u can have the brother bond in a destiel fic but it will hinder his bond with Cas
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fuck everything, finnpoe is canon in my Mind and that's good enough for me
#maybe this is a random post in the middle of all my spn/gravity falls/house md posting but the last star wars movie was on tv and i saw them#and i miss them so i needed to mini-rant abt it rq#star wars#stormpilot#finnpoe#cryptposting
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It breaks my heart whenever Dean is considered a meathead. Because for all his fault, supposed or otherwise, let's not forget this man built an EMF from a walkman, cheats at poker and cesspool since early adolescence, engineered a machine out of seemingly thin air to delete the Ghostfacers' files after Morton House, learnt how to break into protected camera footage from Frank, restored Baby who knows how many times to perfection, did good in school (Dean himself said he didn't but I'm more inclined to believe Sonny), is a battle strategist (I'm looking at you LARP ep) and in the end they outsmarted Ultimate Digivolution God y'know so yeah he might not like doing Sam-style research but he's not a brawn for brains.
#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#spn fandom#rant post#mini rant#personal rant#i want to cry#ill put him in a big nice enclosure#enrichment#a pumpkin to chew on#i want him HSS#happy satisfied and safe#ill feed him little treats everyday
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first and foremost (fundamental) rule of watching supernatural should be accepting that it is a violent violent show for insane people with extremely morally gray characters and depressingly dark themes and it was always intended to be as such
#like eric kripke is a certified crazy person and the show is horror ! it’s horror it’s gritty and dark and gutting#and by crazy ppl i mean horror/ gore/ extreme dark themes enthusiasts#it’s supposed to be disturbing and if the only version of spn that u can accept is a fantasy led sanitised one where everyone lives happily#ever after then it’s not for you it was never for u it’s twisted and that’s good actually ! some of us like that here !#spn#mini rant..?#personal
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Wow.
Supernatural, Grimm, and The Umbrella Academy might be 3 way tied for worst ending to a show.
Why are there so many shows that decide to completely throw out any good messages/arcs they'd built up in favor of destroying multiple characters and just making the stupidest choices?
#idk even know what to tag this#mini rant#it can't really be this hard#so many people on here have come up with better endings in like five seconds#so it's possible#the umbrella academy#spn#grimm
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I usually stop watching Dexter around Season 4, Episode 7.
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Dexter not killing Trinity feels like a plot contrivance; there’s no real reason for him to let him live. He just decides not to kill him after already receiving the proof he needed. Instead, he gets sidetracked with some serial killer of the week because “he threatened Deb.” Really, Dexter? Do you not remember what happened just a few episodes ago because of Trinity?
The idea that “Trinity is on cooldown” doesn’t make sense. When has that ever been a consideration for him? It felt like the showrunners didn't want a predictable series, so they made Dexter act out of character. Trinity isn’t just another Miguel situation; Dexter has seen him kill innocents live. There’s no justification for not dealing with him ASAP.
You could argue that Dexter is struggling with parenthood and being a husband, which clouds his judgment. However, he has never allowed his role as a boyfriend and pseudo-father to so severely distort his logical reasoning. Show runners wanted Trinity to hurt Dexter. The only way they could get that outcome was to make Dexter act outside of his norm.
“Maybe he wanted to learn more about having a normal family life from Trinity.”
Dexter has tabled other serial killers with normal lives. He knows how’s to put on a show and still exist.
“Well Rita needed to go out that way for the set up!” (in a totally different show that the writers definitely knew would be a reality someday)
Actual take I’ve seen before. That show also shifts the dynamics around with the audiences relationship with Dexter so not a fan. I’ll explain. Imagine if Supernatural had a spin-off show that said: “erm actually the Winchesters were pieces of shit the entire time. You should hate them actually. Because technically they were still killing people even if they were irredeemable monsters!”
Then Sam and Dean are killed off by Adam and that found footage werewolf they chose not to hunt.
That’s how that ending feels. So no that “setup” isn’t a good payoff to either series. I’ll just pretend the show ended after S3.
#writers on tumblr#indie writer#writer stuff#writerscommunity#mini rant#indie author#personal vent#rant post#creative writing#dexter#yes yes yes I love your personal headcanon#somehow supernatural got mentioned#supernatural#spn#this rant isn’t about supernatural though
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Overthinking things
If the supernatural anti-possession tattoo can keep demons from getting in, then what about getting out? What if a demon possesses someone and then goes and gets the tattoo? Then does it like, exorcism proof it? And what about someone's inner demons? Does it trap those in you when you get it leaving you stuck with your mental horrors forever? Then what?
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Spilling Tea and Baring Teeth
Not Natural ✨ The Devil's Trap ✨ Holy Water ✨ The Demon's Altar ✨ Midnight Meeting ✨ The Hunter's Trap ✨ Sharp Secrets and Bloody Blades ✨ A Hunter's Beast Tamed ✨ No Chick Flick Moments ✨ Witches, Bitches, and Beasts ✨ Cursed or Not ✨ Poison Lips and True Love's Kiss ✨ Swallowing Hard Truths ✨ Salt and Burn ✨ Five More Minutes ✨ A Hell of an Identity Crisis
Dom x Colson (Yungblud x Machine Gun Kelly)
Warnings: SPN inspired, ABO dynamics (knots, slick, heats), demon Kells, hunter Dom, angry Kells, mini fight (not between them), Tom being secretive, nervous Dom, PTSD, mentioned child abuse, mentions of kidnapping or death (Ramiel), panic attacks, Dom getting sick, hurt/comfort, everyone being awkward, cuddling, boys not so secretly in love ⚰️ rating: mature
The drive home was tense in a way Dom wasn't used to. His lover wasn't ranting or pissed, if anything he was almost catatonic. He stayed with his head in the human's lap all the way. He didn't speak and they kept the radio low. Occasionally he tried to whisper soothing words or give him a comforting touch but the best thing he could do was drive. Whatever Keliphos needed to hear he couldn't give him, they had to get to Tom. He just hoped things wouldn't become a full on fight. The devil was his lover- and deep down he could admit he was so much more than that. The witch was his best friend, his only family anymore. He refused to pick sides but if Tom was still hiding things he felt hurt too.
The second they pulled up to the cottage and they felt the wards close back around them the nephalem came alive again. He pressed a kiss to the Hunter's stomach before sitting up and storming out of the car. Dom turned it off, letting the last rumble of the engine soothe him before he sighed deep. "Well fuck LuLu. Fink I should jus' stay 'ere?" He whispered but he knew he couldn't.
Tom was chopping up vegetables for a soup when his front door slammed open. He had felt the confusion and rage rolling off the halfling from miles away but he was just realizing it might be directed at him. He had tried not to spy all day and of course there were consequences. If he'd kept an eye he would know what was coming for him but with Dom back on the property he was able to get a quick run down from the boy's mind. His silver eyes went wide when he realized they'd met the second most well known fallen angel- he hadn't expected that or that the holy tax accountant would bloody well tell the boys everything. Gods- he wasn't quite sure how to handle the storm rolling in but he could at least stay calm. Fighting fire with fire never helped anyone. Something Castiel said to them was stuck in his mind though and a worry bubbled inside him. At the last moment before Kells got to him he filled the kettle with water to put on the stove. Dom would probably need it.
"So what? You think you can just play us like fucking puppets Tom? I know you think you own him but I'm older than you- if you know something about my life you fucking talk to me! I'm not that breakable you ass!" Keliphos wasn't screaming yet but he was close. Finding the witch so calm in the kitchen almost made it worse but he couldn't react with violence, Dom would never forgive him.
Tom bit the inside of his cheek so as not to laugh. How the demon thought he might be older was beyond him but he couldn't mock the angry boy. After getting the kettle set up he turned back around and faced the beast, sighing deep. His gaze caught on Dom as he wandered quietly in behind and went to sit at the island next to where Kells was standing and fuming. At least he didn't seem angry, that could help. "I didn't hide anything. I knew your mother but I couldn't be sure that was your mother. Why would I tell you before I was sure? Why would I dangle something like that in front of you without knowing I was right and risk breaking your heart?"
"Please!" Kells huffed, crossing his arms over his chest and rolling his eyes. "You don't give a shit about my heart and like that would break me! You love having things over us. You're just playing with us! How fucking dare you keep this from me!"
Tom picked up his knife and started cutting up a garden fresh potato. It wouldn't do to have Dom's dinner be late just because they were having a disagreement. He would always care for the boy. "You know better. Did I not save you twice now? Why would I do that if I just wanted to play with you? I didn't know it was Ramiel. That actually surprises me but I'm happy to know. Your mother was very kind. I'm surprised you come from him." He couldn't help a small dig at the devil. He had saved them multiple times, they were staying under his roof, he was trying to help the brat get his revenge and still he talked to him like that? "I would venture to say how dare you Col. You don't know my life, you don't know who or what I know. I have spent so long trying to stay out of everything and yet here the two of you are. I'm exhausted halfling, I'm retired. And yet how many times have I helped your ass?" His voice went a little darker and the plants in the room wilted. He had to be more careful with his anger.
"See luv? He didn't know. Tom, is 'ere any'fin you ain't telling us?" Dom asked, trying to help the situation.
The witch paused and glanced up at the boy he called family. He could feel his eyelid twitch at the frustration. "I'm sure there is plenty, I'm old- it happens. Anything relevant? I'm not sure." He sighed, he didn't want to lie. He loved the kid and was coming to love the bastard as well but he wasn't good at opening up. He took a deep breath and paused his preparations. He could give them a moment of real focus, he just wasn't used to dealing with other people and their emotions anymore. "Your mother was a good friend of mine. I… I don't know what happened to him but I haven't seen him in a very long time. I would not be surprised if your father killed him. It's what I've believed for many years. I didn't know you were that child or I would have said something. I swear." He tried to soothe and he watched as the rage bled out of the other man and he crumpled into a seat next to his mate.
Kells put his elbows on the table and his head in his hands. "Astaroth is a fucking monster. I'm a fucking monster!" He grumbled, moving his hands until his forehead hit the countertop.
Dom reached slowly over to run a hand over his lover's back. He wanted to help but he wasn't quite sure how to. They were a house full of awkward killers, they didn't exactly have people skills. "'Ere's a little monster in all of us I fink." He sighed and when his best friend snorted a laugh and moved to the stove to turn off the whistling kettle his brow furrowed. "Problem Tommy?"
"Not at all." The witch lied, finishing up a cup of tea for them both. He wasn't even sure about his thought and he certainly wasn't going to toss kindling to the fire that was the devil's emotions. "You're quite right. There's a little monster in us all. We have to choose to do better. It's a choice we make everyday. You aren't your father and you aren't your mother. You have to be your own person and I believe you're trying. You have your own family now Kells, but if you wish to find out what happened to Rami I would gladly help." He hadn't seen his friend since… No he couldn't think about that right now. "I know the fae that tried to protect you both. I can talk to them." He offered. There were plenty of things he didn't think he could tell them yet but at least that was something.
"Thanks. Yeah. That'd be good." The devil mumbled against the marble.
Tom shook his head and turned to pull fresh bread from the oven. The moment he set it on the island the Hunter was trying to reach for it. "Give it a moment. You have absolutely no manners." He huffed softly but smiled at the boy. It was endearing honestly, he was happy to take care of him. He found himself looking at the halfling a bit differently, he may not have memories of his own mother but if he was Ramiel's child he knew there was good in him. If Kells was truly that child he helped raise for four years… No- he needed to wait to think that way until he was alone. There was a reason he had been so scared of Dom falling whelped, he never had been able to keep the babes he thought of as his. Though perhaps they always came back.
Something in the air shifted as Tom went back to cooking. He pulled his hair free of its bun and let it fall like a curtain around his face as if he needed to hide. Dom wanted to fix all of the problems in the room but instead he reached for a roll again and picked at it quietly. He had grown up with parents that fought around him and everytime he was around it he felt like he was doing something wrong. Like the fight was about him even if it wasn't. He had an urge to make everything better but he couldn't in this situation and it hurt his heart. He was so nervous he was starting to get nauseous.
"Dom, we're alright. No one is fighting. Just enjoy your stolen bread." Tom sighed. He didn't want him having a panic attack because of something he had a part in.
Kells sat up a little too fast but for once he hadn't been in his lover's head. He didn't realize Dom was getting anxious until it was too late. He turned to help calm him just as the human stumbled off his seat and ran for the bathroom. The door slamming shut felt like a slap across his face. "Fuck."
"Just give him a moment."
"Does that happen a lot?" He worried aloud. He hated having to ask the witch about his own lover but Tommy had known him longer.
"He panics a lot. You've seen his nightmares. He doesn't normally get sick though." The witch shrugged back, putting the soup to simmer. It didn't seem like it would be eaten anytime soon.
"Grrreat. I'm making him sick. Awesome." The devil grumbled, rubbing his hand over his face. Tom fought himself so he wouldn't make a joke and agree.
"A lot is happening. All you can do is take care of each other. He's your mate now for better or worse. You're part of the family." The ancient made himself stop and look up at the other man. For just a moment he could see the little boy he once loved. "Perhaps you've always been."
"Dude, are you okay?" Keliphos asked, he didn't mean to have a tone but he was a little uncomfortable and overwhelmed. They heard the door open and the Hunter stalk off to their bedroom but that one didn't close. It felt like an invitation.
Tom forced a smile and nodded, waving Col off to the boy they both craved to take care of. "Go on. I'll let you know when dinner is ready. Go take care of him." He sniffled.
Kells paused a moment but after yelling at the witch he didn't know how to help him. What he did know was that they both loved Dom and he came first. Well- he normally did. He caught the frazzled man roll his eyes and he knew he'd heard his mental joke. For once he almost blushed but instead of saying anything he stood up and wandered off to find his human. His mate. He'd caught the word but he didn't know what it meant in context. If anything it sounded a little naughty but it felt right. Maybe it was an angel thing, he wasn't sure but when he reached their room and found Dom curled in a ball in bed he knew the word was correct. That was his mate.
He didn't speak, he just crawled in bed behind his omega and curled close around him. His palm searched out the punk's belly and he tried to heal him but he wasn't sure that was something that could be fixed. Yet again he was struck by the fact that while he was upset- nothing felt as terrible as it would if he didn't have his bitch. Dominic made everything better. "Hungry baby?" He asked softly, nuzzling Dom's hair when the kid just groaned.
"Later. I'm okay." His inner child was still nervous and didn't want anyone worrying about him. He wanted to make everything better.
"Shit Dom… You do make everything better. Look at me. Look- hey, roll over here." He sighed, helping as the boy moved. When shiny jade eyes met his he hurt even more. He hadn't meant to scare him. "None of that was you. You keep me from getting really pissed. You keep me sane. Fuck Dom… I can't do any of this without you. And you fucking know I hate this feels shit." He grumbled. Maybe he still had too much of an edge but he was trying to settle. To soothe. "We're chill okay? I swear not to hurt your bestie."
Dom huffed a laugh and inched closer. "Like you could." He teased, pressing himself against his partner's chest. "I'm glad we know. I'll 'elp you find 'im. We'll find 'im." He vowed softly. They weren't cuddling, of course they weren't but his lover's hold was warm and he was still drained from their long day.
"Thank you." Keliphos whispered back, pressing a kiss to the boy's wild hair. If he didn't know better their words sounded a bit like 'I love you' but that wasn't something he could deal with yet. It didn't matter anyway, he could feel Dom already half asleep in his arms. The scent of Tom's special tea filled the room and he knew if he looked it would be on the bedside table, sent in by the witch. He may have issues with his secrecy but they both cared about his mate. Perhaps he could learn to be part of a family, it was just so fucking new.
Author's Note/Tags: @iamnotanearthlingmotherfucker @hollywoodxwhore @jaxbreaker @fenoy7 @cole-way-iero28 🖤
Don't worry, smut is never far off. I thought their fight would be more intense but they're almost acting like the adults they should already have been for thousands of years! Yay! What happened between Tom and Ramiel? What is Tom still hiding? Where is Ramiel and how can they find out? What do the fae have to do with anything? How will they handle their next steps when Tom and Kells don't want Dom to be in danger? Keep reading to find out! Thank you! 🖤⚰️
#yungblud#dominic harrison#dom harrison#machine gun kelly#mgk#colson baker#dom and colson#dom and colson fic#dom x colson#dom x colson fic#yungblud and machine gun kelly#yungblud and machine gun kelly fic#yungblud x machine gun kelly#yungblud x machine gun kelly fic#com#com fic#domson#domson fic#my fics#jinx fics#supernatural inspired#abo#alpha beta omega#demon kells#hunter dom#witch tom#ptsd#panic attacks#family fighs#boys in love
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most of "the drama" was a couple years ago when jensen was pitching the prequel series he didn't tell jared at first (some people knew about it but I think he said on a podcast or smthn that it was really early on in the process so he didn't want to tell too many people), then it got leaked and jared went on a mini twitter rant where he was rude to jensen and one of the spn/prequel writers and sam was ultimately completely left out of the prequel where other people made cameos. supposedly they cleared the air afterwards but I can imagine it put a bit of strain on their relationship. there have also been times (notably once at 2022 Denver con I'm pretty sure) where jared has talked over jensen when answering certain questions - the infamous "supernatural isn't about non binary or heterosexuality" rant - which was essentially just a full minute of him putting his foot in his mouth, supposedly they also had a shouting match at that same con (although I can't verify that, it's only what I've heard). then jared apparently wanted jensen to work with him on his show "Walker" and ultimately jensen did a cameo and directed one ep but went to film Big Sky instead. there's also been talk around how the spn finale was used to springboard Walker and that jensen wasn't happy with the finale (he definitely wasn't happy with dean's death and has repeatedly made fun of it) and from what he's said, no one was on his side about how it ended - plus jared has repeatedly praised how the show ended (although I won't judge him too harshly, he did want to keep his job at the CW whilst jensen was moving on so jared very much had skin in the game there). around the time the show was ending jensen I think moved further up north? whilst jared stayed in Texas so that would put some distance between them. there's also the convention that jared missed and jensen made some kind of salty remarks about making your own schedule and not turning up to things (although those could very well have been jokes, I'm not great with tone). but as far as I can tell they're at the very least cordial with each other now and seem to have made up. feel free not to post this bc I feel slightly embarrassed that I know all of this... most of this info didn't come to me of my own free will lol (also feel free to fact check because whilst I'm 90% certain most of this is accurate some of it is just rumours and I may have gotten something wrong or forgotten something)
tldr/ they had some falling outs but don't seem to hate each other and generally seem to get along
Thank you for your input, Anon
I love you
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People are constantly confusing queer coding with subtext - well, what they think is subtext anyways, there hardly is any queer subtext in SPN. There's text, homophobic jokes and misinterpretation.
But my mini-rant aside if folks would just look up what words mean we wouldn't have this discussion.
imagine thinking sam "I felt like a freak my whole life amongst my family and my peers and society as a whole" winchester isn't queer coded
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hi for the love of god hello ✨
So I recently hit my 1k follower milestone and thought I’d do a little something to celebrate becoming a Supernatural blog in 2021 and that 1000 people have decided this decision was valid. I love you all and would not trade this last year for anything.
Since I’m a content creator, what better way to party than a creator celebration! To make it even better, I’m planning this during my birthday weekend ~
To join the party, use the tag #justcastiel1k or mention me!
Make whatever you like! Art, fics, amvs, edits, web weaving, poetry, anything! There will be three prompts per day. Feel free to interpret them however you want. Use just one or all three, doesn’t matter! The third prompt will be from a song, but you don’t need to use that song in your creation.
January 13 - 16
Prompts
Jan 13: trueform/angel - falling/flying - “holy feeling”
Jan 14: cowboy - alone - “not dead yet”
Jan 15: young Dean - tattoos - “everything is temporary”
Jan 16: epilogue - faith - “where I belong”
Important notes! January 13th is my birthday! Also, while this is a celebration, I'd like it known that I LOVE angst. Fluff and happy posts are of course welcomed and cherished, but please do not hesitate to make me want to walk into the ocean. Literally daring you to do your worst. Or make soft domestic pieces, I'm completely happy either way lol ~
lawboy notes (rules)
nsfw content is welcome! just please tag it #lemon
you don’t have to follow me to participate!
I’m obviously a destiel fan, but I welcome other pairings and characters!
no inc*st, non-con, or minor/adult pairings
nothing J*hn Winchester positive
Hope everyone has fun with this! Do not hesitate to dm me or send me an ask if you have any questions!
Can’t wait to see what you come up with for these prompts. It’s a while out so there’s plenty of time lol. Will tag some beloved mutuals who may be interested in participating or could help spread the word.
#so excited about this!#hope y'all are too#some prompt clarification or inspo ~#all the song links go to the same mini playlist btw#for the angel one it doesn't have to be trueform. just literally anything angel related. wings. halos. angel characters. trueform reps.#doesn't matter at all#and for the falling/flying you don't have to use both words#also just a little note that I am *obsessed* with Stanford era Dean#and I'm also a major DeanLee truther. especially during that gap.#but whether you do Sam and Dean as kids or some time travel shenanigans or a DeanLee oneshot#just remember that in this house we think J*hn Winchester is an abusive asshole and Bobby is their real father#aaaand think that's it!#all pretty straight forward lol#I just can't help myself from ranting in the tags a little on an og post#spn creator celebration#creator celebration#justcastiel1k#wincesties dni#<- for insurance lol
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ok im feeling less feelings from last night now its time to talk abt Sam & reality issues!!
like the way his struggle w/ reality post-cage is never fully dealt w/ & is instead just pushed onto Cas feels kinda cheap. i wish we cldve gone deeper into how much his hallucinations & derealization affected him.
how often wld Sam try to mentally convince himself tht "this is real. im not in the cage anymore. im alive"? or what abt w/ food? bc we've seen it once when he was in the hospital, but its just the 1 time.
& what abt when Cas takes on Sams hallucinations? tht only took away the Hallucifer. tht more than likely didnt help anything w/ the derealization. sure, it mightve been a little easier for Sam, but he was still left struggling. like???? hello theres soooo many gaps here????
anyways im kinda bitter on how little the writers went w/ this. yeah sure they probably didnt wanna drag smth like this out, but theres sooo much they cldve done w/ it. they just kinda made it like Lucifer was the main problem (he was a big part) but they didnt realize tht Sams "am i really here" is more than just Hallucifer
#ok mini rant over. im just kinda upset tht this is barely looked over. like hello!!!! important things here!!!! cant brush em over so quick#sam#spn#gt.txt
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GUYS! i was listening to get free by lana del ray the other day on my bike ride and just randomly it just hit me this song is about seasons 1-5 sam.
let me tell you my analysis:
Finally... I'm crossing the threshold
From the ordinary world to the reveal of my heart
(okay obviously, this is talking about his leave for college. the “ordinary world” referencing his life with his dad and brother and how that was his ordinary but now he gets to follow his heart and break free from the way things ‘should’ be.)
Undoubtedly... That will for certain
Take the dead out of the sea and the darkness from the arts
(to me this is sam knowing that his leave will uproot his family and cause major issues. i think these lyrics double as showing for sam: a stir and deep change taking place within himself as he feels normal for once. which takes the “darkness” out of him. as for his family relationship: taking the dead out of the sea would reference himself, he’s taking himself out of the situation and changing the sea would cause ripples and waves. leaving dean and john in disarray.)
This is my commitment, my modern manifesto
I'm doing it for all of us who never got the chance
(sams commitment to leaving, his fights with john about his departure, hes truly set in stone about this change. the second part is such a sam thing to say, “all of us” referencing anyone who feels different/out of place, he’s saying he’s taking back his life for himself and showing everyone like him that they can too.)
For... and for... (shut up, shut up)
And all my birds of paradise (shut up, shut up)
Who never got to fly at night (shut up, shut up)
'Cause they were caught up in the dance
(again sams feeling trapped his whole childhood, he feels sympathetic for anyone who felt the same. he couldn’t “fly” because he was stifled by his family and hunting, the dance he was caught up in was quite literally just his family dynamic.)
Sometimes it feels like I've got a war in my mind
I want to get off, but I keep riding the ride
I never really noticed that I had to decide
To play someone's game, or live my own life
(to me this is pushing on farther, he’s reunited with dean and they’re looking for john: SO CLEAR! the war in his mind is the loyalty to his brother but he knows he doesn’t share deans desires in life. so he’s tearing himself apart by wanting to be there for dean, but simultaneously wanting some release and to escape. he keeps “riding the ride” as in he can’t escape hunting, hunting is a revolving door for him, like the boys say many times through out the series you’re never really out of the life. now we’re getting further along the line, they find out about the apocalypse, the game is gods plan for him and how he will be lucifer’s vessel. he just desperately wants to live his own life and be free from all of this.)
And now I do, I wanna move
Out of the black (out of the black)
Into the blue (into the blue)
(“out of the black into the blue” is him making that shift between trusting dean and trusting himself, obviously trusting himself leads him down the path with ruby which will be touched on later.)
Finally... Gone is the burden of the Crowley way of being
That comes from energies combined
(he’s finally done with the intense life that came from his family’s energy and beliefs, dean is in hell and he’s lost by himself.)
Like my part was I, was not discerning
And you, as we found out, were not in your right mind
(sam feels as though he was naive in his role to starting the apocalypse, he feels it was his part to play and wishes he hadn’t played it. the second line referencing both dean the day sam killed lilith and deans revival and finding him with ruby. dean acted rashly but ultimately was just trying to protect sam both times. sam sees his protectiveness as “not being in his right mind” because he doesn’t understand what dean is protecting, he doesn’t believe he deserves protecting.)
There's no more chasing rainbows and hoping for an end to them
Their arches are illusions, solid at first glance
But then you try to touch them (touch, touch)
There's nothing to hold on to (hold, hold)
(this part of the song literally sparked this whole thing: THIS! THIS IS DEAN. dean, for sam, is the illusion of stability. but when sam reaches out, dean isn’t there for him. he ends up going down demon blood path because he’s reaching for his brother to save him but dean isn’t there. deans presence and protectiveness doesn’t expand to sam’s specific emotional needs. dean can’t be there for sam the way sam needs him to. “there’s nothing to hold onto” to me specifically is sam saying, he wants dean to be able to save him, he wants to love his brother but it just doesn’t end up the way it should. he feels abandoned by dean despite deans best efforts.)
The colors used to lure you in (shut up, shut up)
And put you in a trance (ah, ah, ah, yeah)
(“the colors” being sam, this is sams commentary on dean, he’s saying dean used to be there for him because he was lured by the illusion of a perfectly sweet little brother, of a kid who needs protection. deans belief because of this illusion is that he has to protect sam no matter the cost. this belief effectively putting dean “in a trance” where dean makes decisions that he shouldn’t just because of this certain way of acting he’s used to.)
Sometimes it feels like I've got a war in my mind
I want to get off, but I keep riding the ride
I never really noticed that I had to decide
To play someone's game, or live my own life
(the war in his mind is now more emotional turmoil than the previous conflict over escaping hunting. it’s the feelings from the impending apocalypse leering over sam, he just wants it to end but he and dean are stuck playing the game.)
And now I do, I wanna move
Out of the black (out of the black)
Into the blue (into the blue)
Out of the black (out of the black)
Into the blue (into the blue)
Out of the black (out of the black)
Into the blue (into the blue)
(now after all his evolution, i think this is referencing that he wants to move out of this era of his life. he knows he can’t go back to being normal, he longs for the simpler times, he just wants his old life with dean back. even though that was the very thing he tried to escape, he came full circle because of all the bad that happened.)
#1 am ramblings#i have no clue what has gotten into me#if you haven’t heard this song plz listen#this for all the#sam girl#s#and#sam stan#sam winchester#supernatural#spn#god the part about the rainbows and not being able to reach them#SCREAMS SAMS RELATIONSHIP WIRH DEAN#DEAN IS THE RAINBOW#ramblings#sorry for my rambling#mini rant
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Would you do art of the named angels as well at some point? (like metatron, gabriel, etc.)
I am considering it! I am very interested in all the Archangels especially since they lend well to artistic interpretation with all the themes they individually have.
I think Metatron is one I wanna do more research first on cause I'm much less familiar with Jewish texts and gotta wade through like 50 articles about supernatural to find decent stuff cause google is a hell hole
#im sorry im just annoyed that spn keeps popping up when i try to look for angelic stuff#sorry this ask turned into a mini rant like i swear i just want to learn about angels i do not want to see spn clips on youtube#like how do i say this .. why do all the powerful beings in spn look like men id see in a work zoom call#ask#maryaustria#response#File Recovery
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Everytime supernatural Trends on tumblr I'm reminded why I left the Fandom years ago before the show ended.. Like how have the actors not changed in all that time.. prepared better for questions instead of spewing nonsense/homophobic/sexist speech.. On the one hand it's wild but on the other hand
(( they live in Texas so not really))
#spn#supernatural#The Fandom itself I generally don't have anything against (except for parts I don't agree with)#But my god the actors were messy back then and I can't believe are still so bad with answering questions about Dean and Cas at cons#If it makes you uncomfortable then just prepare sth generic as an answer#Honestly this show is a gateway to queer baiting and homophobia; big sigh#Mini rant over#Gonna stop scrolling through the tag; don't mind me bye
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hey, spn writers?
whAT THE FUCK WAS THAT EPISODE
destiel aside, 15x18 was good, it was entertaining, compelling, plot-packed, made sense and was overall satisfying. now, this may be just my opinion, perhaps everyone else liked it idk, but 15x19 was so fucking disappointing.
like, yes, i love jake abel, and i missed adam, but michael was good enough, too.... until he wasn’t; after ten years of being trapped in the cage, and then actually experiencing the world -with adam, may i add-, he really sold them off to daddy? really? maybe it makes sense and i’m wrong, i’m no writer after all, but i genuinely believed he had changed, not cas levels of change, sure, but maybe enough not to betray them.
and speaking of cas, i was, again, SO DISAPOINTED. they literally just ignored that cas is gone??? dean’s behaviour in this episode, compared to the ending of the last one, was just weird. how does he go from breaking down to the point of ignoring sam to being literally like any other day?! and i’m not even talking about the ignored confession, because we all kind of expected that, didn’t we? expecting a confession on dean’s part was wishful thinking, but even if you take that not so little detail away, cas was their fucking friend and dad, in jack’s case, and they don’t even mourn him! i mean, yeah, they don’t have time to lose all with god and whatever, but still!!!!! not even jack!!
probably the only thing i liked was what they did with chuck, i didn’t think the whole jack being the new god idea was what they were gonna go with, but i didn’t hate it, except for the fact that we still have a two hour episode to go and idk what they’ll do with that
the lucifer thing felt slightly random imo, but that may just be me liking gabriel better, although it wouldn’t have made sense for chuck to bring gabe back, as much as i love him. other thing i didn’t like was the montage at the end, why do it in the second to last episode??
in general, i am very confused as to what will happen in the finale, i just really, really, really, reallly hope they don’t pull an endgame on us, because i’ll never forgive marvel for that movie and i wouldn’t like this show (which, even thhough i only started this year, has found a place in my heart) to have such a shitty ending, and this episode lowkey felt like that
Edit: can't believe i forgot, but they also just ignored eileen?? last episode sam was so worried, and their relationship is actually canon, and they just? ignored her?? for that shot of sam and dean driving away in the impala??? what the actual fuck, writers
#this sounds very negative#i'm just disappointed#maybe it's an unpopular opinion idk#supernatural#supernatural season 15#spn 15x19#supernatural 15x19#15x19#rant post#mini rant#is it mini tho#castiel#Supernatural Finale#supernatural spoilers#spoilers#jack kline#dean winchester#sam winchester#chuck shurley#michael supernatural#avenger endgame#spn 15x19 spoilers#season 15 spoilers#eileen leahy
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